Stream of Consciousness

You can totally convince yourself that you're OK with the status quo until you try to change it, and then no matter what happens you're left with the undeniable fact that you are not happy with things as they stand. Picked up my cap and gown today (paid for my cap and gown today since I don't go to Barnard where you get them for free). The only thing that is certain about my future is that on May 15th and 16th I will look utterly ridiculous with the rest of Columbia's graduates in baby blue. Waiting for the snow to melt and summer to come. Just wish summer didn't mean graduation. So psyched for the summer but wish I knew what happens afterwards. Wish I knew what I want to happen afterwards. I hate it when people tell me everything is going to work out. Maybe it will, I hope it will, but just because thus far it has worked out for you does not mean it will work out for me, k? I need a vacation. What's that you say? I was just on spring break? True. But I need a real vacation--one in which my brain shuts up or better yet goes someplace else.